It Is Difficult To Celebrate...

"It Is Difficult To Celebrate The Success Of Others,
If One Does Feel They Can Celebrate Their Own."

It's hard to be happy for other people, if you yourself aren't happy, and this is perfectly natural.
It is not something to be ashamed of, or something to be punished and reprimanded.
It is as natural as breathing or water seeking equilibrium.

I always would feel ashamed when I would hear about the success of people I knew and would feel a sharp stab of jealousy tinged with personal regret.
Shame.
That would be there too.

Throughout my own life, I have always felt that I was not achieving anything of significance.
Yet, through it all, I have always had an undilutable feeling that I was meant to do special, remarkable things with my life.

I thank Mom for this.
She always told me I was special, and I believed her because she said it with confidence and faith in me.
Thanks Mom. : ' )

Everyone should feel special.
Everyone should be engaged in activities which make them feel special.
Everyone IS special, and their life should be one which reflects this truth.

Of course, it is well nigh impossible to celebrate another's success when one isn't being successful in their own right.
How can they?
Deep inside they know they are capable of anything, anything at all.
The knowledge that they are not fulfilling their innate abilities cannot be anything but frustrating and spawning of resentment.
And.
It should.

Powerful negative energy catalyzes action.
The quest, to release the negative energy and balance it with positive.

It certainly has for me.
All my jealousies and frustrations I have cultivated into a desire to do great things with my life.
nothing short of : changing the whole world.

I couldn't let myself go through all the suffering I did for nothing after all. ; )

I deserve better.
And I believe that.